HAPPY ANd I KNOW IT!!

OKAY MY PEOPLE WHO ARE READING THIS!! (prolly no one is readying it!!)

Yes, I have been blogging about my best friend this past few months and what not. Yes, you can probably tell by the title of this one... I AM HAPPY!!!

Okay let's recap what I have been blogging about my best friend
- texting others all the time
- no effort to make time with friends
- distance between us
- not chillage lately
- laughing with others

Yeah, general idea right?? Well, in this past month it has been getting better between us. You know, she was telling me that she was always busy with studying and everything. Also, many stuff going on with her that makes her busy.

Following??

Yeah but it has been getting better and stuff, and I feel like we picked up right where we left off. Yeah we are cools!! I am happy we picked up where we left off!!

peace and love always
<3 ceLLy tig.

Distance Between Us

Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm venting about my "best friend" again. I'm not sure if that is the right title to call her. I consider her as one of my "best friends" but does she consider me as one?? Think about it... Anyways...

Prom was last Friday. It was okay... my Senior Prom. I originally didn't want to go, but I did anyways. I'm glad that I did go though. It's because my "best friend" slept over. It was nice because we had a good convo. It was a nice heart-to-heart thing. It was different from what we are use to be talking about. Like before when we where together, something would come up and we would just start laughing. Every thing that followed that, would just be laugh. I would somehow find a way to make her laugh.

I guess that we might have reached a new level (guess you can say that) of friendship. I wouldn't say it's a higher level or lower level. Just a different level, a new one. Yeah, but still in one of my earlier blogs I had mentioned that we have drifted. Despite our heart-to-heart convo, I still feel like that emptiness that wasn't there before when we where -- close. So yeah, I don't know if she can feel it too.

Another thing that I noticed as well, we I can't seem to get her to laugh. It seems like that she is only laughing with others. I guess that it's the situation that she is in and how she feels makes me not able to make her laugh.

I just hope that this distance between us would not continue. I want to hold on to a good friendship. I want it to last for like long times. I would like to stay in touch and still be friends with her for many years to come. If it doesn't then I guess it's not meant to be.

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t.

HOW CAN THEY DO IT!!!

You know... I love my parents!! They honestly do so many things for me and my sister. The thing is that they tell me that I am not able to go to events in my youth group. I love my youth group. The people in it are amazing and I love to serve the Lord through my youth group. It completes who I am. The people in it make my life so much more easier to live... they are my second family. They don't see that I look to them when I can't say something to my sister and my parents.

They are the ones that keep my faith alive and they keep me happy. They ease of the loads that are upon my shoulders. I guess that I can still chill with them but a part of me would still want to serve God with them. Which I can't because my parents forbit me from going to the youth group activities.

IT SUCKS BALLS!!

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t.

Missing My Best Friend

Okay y'all!!
guess what?? I'm missing someone right now... she is one of my best friends... and like I miss her terrible. Not just because she is in Ottawa right now... but because i think we slightly drifted.

You know I miss her being around... you know we haven't been really chilling lately... well for one thing I have been busy like last month and haven't been out in a while... now that I am generally free this month she is like studying...

You know it may seem like I'm madly in love with her and I wanna marry her... it's not like that. She has a special place in my heart... and I love her... like a family... you know what I'm saying?? I miss our hang-outs... I miss making her laugh and laughing with her...

and if she is reading this right now.... I say.... YEAH YOU HEAR THAT ARAINE!! I MISS YOU!!

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t

WHY DID I DO THAT!!

Free The Child (charity thing) does a campaign each year for Halloween. It's called "Halloween For Hunger." It is where people go door to door asking can goods to give to the hungry. Usually i would do this but this year I couldn't do because of family stuff. (don't wanna go in detail). So therefore i was in a city 3 hours away. (that's where all my extended family is.)

My friends did this "Halloween For Hunger." On Halloween night they went out as ask for can goods right?? yeah... I kept texting my 2 friends that where in the same group. They were jokingly telling me "oh this guy is a jerk b/c he doesn't help me with the cans LoL!!" or "she is annoying... HaHa jk" So the following Monday, we were all at school and I told my friend that our guy friend said that she was a b***. But really he just said that she was annoying and he said it in a joking way. And now our guy friend is saying "oh I didn't call you a b****" WHICH HE DIDN'T!!

Now it's starting a slight drama between everyone!! CRAP!! why in the world did I say that!! I have no idea why!! It just came out!! My friends don't get into dramas but now we are just because I let my mouth speak!! and yeah!! I'M SO STUPID!! it's not getting really bad but yeah. I just want every one to drop it!!

I don't know what do do!!

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t.

My Best Friends

I have a friend... we known each other since september of 2008... not long eh?? Since then we become really close. You can say that we are best friends. I am always willing to be with her and I always want to chill and hang out and stuff. We always have good times together. Following??
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I feel like that if I don't ask her to chill or something... she wouldn't initiate to come and ask me about chilling time. I also feel like sometime when we are together or in our group of friends she is attached to her phone.

Always texting someone.
Always walking behind us, looking at her texts and texting back.



It annoysme sometimes because she is always texting and making people feel abesnt when they are around her. Like I dont mind her taking it out every now and then when we are together. It's not like that. She is always looking at the damn thing!!
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I feel like she makes no effort for our "together time." She like never comes to me to chill I always have to go to her to her to ask her to chill. I always am trying to make room for her. If you read my other blog... "Plan Cancelling" She is always the one cancelling on me!! It's so annoying!! I make room on my schedule to be with her and I get a text from her saying that she can't go. THIS IS LAST MINTUE TOO!! Honestly, I make the effort to be with her and it seems like she doesn't appericiate it.

Don't get me wrong, we do spend time together, and it would be occationally her invite. The thing is that sometimes she doesn't pull her part. Does this make sense to you??

any way.... I'll leave it at that for now...

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t.

Under Apperciated

Have you ever had that feeling that you are "under apperciated" or that "second rate" friend. I'm not even sure im putting that right but do you know what I mean?? Like sometimes I don't even know why I try. I'll give it some time and we'll see what happens.

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t.

Sense Of Belonging

There are people that don't have people to lean on. There are people that something more then just family. You know, many people are very lonely. They would like more then just having family around you all the time, because you know, you grew up with these people.

There are people that just don't have friends. I use to be one of them. Also I remember when I was in grade 10 I only had one friend. I was also kinda depressed then too. I was also "hard to be around." So my one friend invited somewhere occaionally. At this point in my life I didnt feel like I belonged somewhere. I felt like a cast away Tnen something changed.

I was invited to this retreat or "camp" as the call it. The camp was sorta an entry point to this youth group. Guess what?? My life changed at that point because this youth group gave me somewhere to belong and now I am a better person

Plan Cancelling

Don't you hate when you have a friend that cancels plans last mintue?? Once you friend cancelled last mintue... you are stuck at home doing nothing because it is too late to make plans with you other friends because they are doing something else!!!

I hate calling a friend when I know they are in the middle of something and you are trying to make plans with them.

Now there are some friends that don't mind you calling last mintue. The thing is that one friend that orginally cancelled on you, they don't have the consideration to call you ahead of time.

IT MAKES ME SO MADE WHEN THEY CANCEL LAST MINTUE!! THEN I END UP BEING AT HOME WASTING MY LIFE AWAY!!! or doing this blog!!!

My advice to all you reading this...... TRY TO CANCEL PLANS A GOOD AMOUNT OF TIME BEFORE!!!

peace and love always
<3 ceLLy t.