Distance Between Us

Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm venting about my "best friend" again. I'm not sure if that is the right title to call her. I consider her as one of my "best friends" but does she consider me as one?? Think about it... Anyways...

Prom was last Friday. It was okay... my Senior Prom. I originally didn't want to go, but I did anyways. I'm glad that I did go though. It's because my "best friend" slept over. It was nice because we had a good convo. It was a nice heart-to-heart thing. It was different from what we are use to be talking about. Like before when we where together, something would come up and we would just start laughing. Every thing that followed that, would just be laugh. I would somehow find a way to make her laugh.

I guess that we might have reached a new level (guess you can say that) of friendship. I wouldn't say it's a higher level or lower level. Just a different level, a new one. Yeah, but still in one of my earlier blogs I had mentioned that we have drifted. Despite our heart-to-heart convo, I still feel like that emptiness that wasn't there before when we where -- close. So yeah, I don't know if she can feel it too.

Another thing that I noticed as well, we I can't seem to get her to laugh. It seems like that she is only laughing with others. I guess that it's the situation that she is in and how she feels makes me not able to make her laugh.

I just hope that this distance between us would not continue. I want to hold on to a good friendship. I want it to last for like long times. I would like to stay in touch and still be friends with her for many years to come. If it doesn't then I guess it's not meant to be.

peace and love
<3 ceLLy t.