The Power Of A Prayer

I grew up in a Christian home. Where we went to church every Sunday, we pray together as a family etc. I never really thought about it. I just went through the words not thinking abaout the meaning. Not taking it to heart. When I grew older, prayer became an indepedant thing.

Every time I would go to bed, say a prayer...
Every time I would wake up, say a prayer...

I would just go through the words. Again, not taking it to heart, not thinking how big the impact it is to pray. Not thinking that God actually plays a big part of my life. At the time, He really did play a big role in my life, in a sense. I always had seen my parents pray really hard, and as a child, I was really influenced by my parents. So, I would go through the actions like my parents. Even when I pray independently. FOLLOWING??

Okay, let's fast forward to my GRADE 8 year. This was the year of when I got confirmed in the Catholic-Christian faith. This was the year when I was graduating and moving on into high school!! Exciting stuff eh?? After June came, when I graduated, I started to.... I guess... not care about praying often. So I started to gradually not pray as frequently and consistently as I did before. So going into high school, I was excited for the new year and everything!! GRADE 9 was a year of discovery of a new school and finding out how that system works. At that same time, my faith and spiritual life seemed to start fading slowly. Along with my faith was my sense of identity and pride. Less praying, Less interested to go to church, I wasn't interested to live a faith-filled life like I was when I was growing up. That is what my parents implemented in me from the very start!! Come GRADE 10 and my relationship with God was non-existent. My faith and spiritual life was not there anymore.

At this point of my life... everything was a wreck!!

- Faith/ Spirituality

- My sense of identity
- My emotions

- My family

- My grades

and just to add to that is that I was lonely!! and I was walking on this earth lost, not knowing what I was doing and why I was living!! I was walking around confused!!....................... yeah..................... things were not going good for me at this point!!

Well, when I was finishing up my GRADE 10 year, My life had made a full 360!! I had a life changing experience. I am not going to tell you about it cause we will be here forever!! This life changing experience taught my how to pray again. Not just go through the actions, but really meaning what I say to God!! I started to pray through my heart. I started to have a true relationship with him!!

You know, I am really strong in my faith now. But I am not a perfect person. So, sometimes I would not pray for like a month and a little bit, and in that time I literary start to get "emotionally sick."

So with the power of the prayer keeps me alive, and keeps me healthy and keeps me on the right track. I ACCEPT GOD IN MY LIFE AND HE IS A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE!!

Inspired By You

I feel a little inspired.

During the weekend, I was at a Leader Training for my YFC chapter. I am now a Household head...... that is not the point. The point is not my position in YFC. The point is that I am inspired by the brothers and sisters that are now leaders.

I believe that these people are actually willing to serve for God in YFC. I believe that they agreed to be leaders because their heat for God... make sense??

You know I can honestly say that I love these people and with these people, we can bring YFC Hamilton to where it needs to be. I am so inspired by these people I will be working with.

I have so much more to say, but I will keep it short. I might blog more about subject, depending.

The bottom line is that I am inspired by these people and by God.

Give And take

Hey everyone!!

I know I haven't been blogging for a while. It's just because that I hadn't had any decent time to myself and hadn't had any inpirations for my blog topics. I probably will post up some of my poetry stuff up soon times. Anyway, this is a new blog for you. Here it is.

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I feel like that I keep giving myself with nothing in return. Like, I am always trying to provide for others the best I can. I always, I guess, feed to a relationship. But I what am I getting. At the end of the day, I feel happy that I can give so much to a friend and that they are always satified.

I always find my fill when I give to others. I always find my fill when I know that I did somethng to someone or said something to make them good. The thing that hurts me though, is that they do not give the same back. In any relatonship, it should be a give and take type thing.

I am always giving, they are always taking but how about the other way around?? Can' t they see that I always show my love to them?? I guess this is similar to my "BEING ON THE SIDELINES" post and the last post I posted.

Then again,
- Maybe they would come around and we can have a give and take relationsip that I always wanted.
- Maybe something good would happen to me later on. (karma)
- Maybe this can be a test of my patience and I just have to wait for them to realize that they aren'y giving enough

What do you think??

The reason why I give a lot of myself, it's because I have the strength to love a lot. Everyone needs that someone that loves them a lot.