Are you one of those people that no one calls??
Are you one of those people that only gets calls when people need you??
Are you one of those people that have to give the calls??

Are you one of those people that gets no texts??
Are you one of those people that sends text and only gets one word text or no text at all??

Are you one of those people that get no facebook wall posts??
Are you one of those people that looks on facebook and sees everyone else's wall is full of people??

I am one of those people. I don't understand it, I know people, I be nice and try to be friend everyone. But at the end of the day, I am alone. No one be like "hey what's up" no one gives me a call, just to talk. I would love to just talk to someone on the phone. Doesn't matter if it is just about what ever. It doesn't matter what we talk about. I just would like to talk someone!!

LIKE DUDE!! I am damn lonely at the end of the day. It would be nice to just get a call from someone to say... "let's just talk" or just a simple "i miss you" but then again.... I feel like no one loves me. Even though people say it, they don't show it. I definitely don't feel loved. Yeah, I don't get any shit from any one!!! Like serious dude!!

I HATE THIS FEELING!! I check my facebook everyday.... but for what?? It's not like somebody messaged me or anything!! I leave my MSN (instant messaging) on. BUT FOR WHAT!! It's not like someone is ganna leave me a message!! Like who cares about ME!!

Just a useless piece of meat on the sidelines of everyone's LIFE!! I AM NOT IN THE BALL GAME!!

Emotions Taking me Over

You know this pas month has been an emotional roller coaster. I'm not sure if i should refer it as that but I have been like really "emotionally sick." If you can say it that way. Here is what I have been feeling like different... stuff... I just feel like I need something to revive me back to how happy I was. Like I'm not sure what happened but before the Christmas holidays I was happy right then after coming into the year of 2010, I don't know what happened right after that.

You know, it's probably my tendency to over think things. I should stop like thinking to much. Like, the situations I'm in, I start thinking all the 'COULD OF' SHOULD OF' 'WOULD OF' 'WHY DID THIS HAPPEN' or just over thinking a certain situation. With everything that's happening this is what i feel at the end of the day.

- lonely
- sadness
- anger
- hopeless

I haven't felt like this for years. Well, I don't know. We will see what happens after this month if over. We will see how things change... maybe I'll come out if it...

peace and love

ceLLy tigs

DISTRACTIONS!!

Okay people!! or who ever is reading this... (prob no one)

yes as the title states.... I AM DISTRACTED!! Uber distracted. Okay, I am suppose to do my final project for my English class. But I am being really distracted by facebook, youtube, and yes!! I am done my rough copy... now I have to type out my good copy... and yeah.... I'll get it finished though... IN NO TIME!!

peace and love

<3 ceLLy t

MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Okay y'all this must be the best Christmas and New Year yet!! Honestly, I felt like I was living in a dream!! It was great!!

For Christmas, me and my family went to a city that was 3 hours away to go to the family party (on my mom's side). While we where there, we went to another party that our friend's there invited us to. The family party was on the boxing day (26th) and the other party was on Christmas day (25th). Yeah at the first party the one our friend's party. It was funny cause it was with this all these games and fun fun stuff. Bonded better with the people there. Then the family party came, it was awesome!! All the family was there, and everything was amazing. We all had fun together. It was just GREAT!!! I can't really explain it.... Oh, did I mention that i made a video for them?? Yeah that went well.

For new year's eve, me and my family actually bonded. It was a beautiful thing. The first time in 3 / 4 years, I felt like I was in the family. And I felt like, my parents were my parents on an emotional level, and I felt like me and my sister bonded the most.

peace and love
<3 ceLLy tig.