Thinking

You know, things in life do get really confusing.
I have a tendency to over think things.

I know that I have many people around me that love me. Friends and family.

You know... people do not always show they love you in the ways that you want to. I am currently in that situation. I always question if my friends and family, especially friends, if they really do love me. I always ask myself "why don't they do this" or "why don't they do that" to show their love.

But the thing is, patience. Just be patient with your loved ones, cause they love you. They have other ways to show their love.

I Might Be Selfish

You know, with friendships there are ups and downs right??

I have to constantly remind myself of that.

I have blogged about my best friend before. I am going to do it again today!!!

Yeah, I guess we are experiencing the down part of our friendship. Just because I don't feel the closeness like I do at different times. I feel like that she is putting my on the sidelines (refer to my last post).

I am willing to be close with her again. But is she?? that is the question. I feel like that she is not willing... gets it?? Although, that may not be the case.

The non-closeness can be caused by me as well, I just may be too selfish and just want to keep her all to myself. Then again, why can't I feel her part of our friendship??

Do you get it??

I guess I will keep doing my part, and we will see if she would acknowledge the best friend on the sidelines.

BEING ON THE SIDLINES

Okay, everybody knows about sports. Like I am talking about sports in general!! There are the players on the field/court playing the game, and there are the people on the sidelines that don't get to play. They are still apart of the team. They are the ones who cheer on their fellow team members, and often the un-acknowledged ones. Just because they are not the ones on the field/court.

The players on the field/court always acknowledge the people in the stands that are cheering, but never the other players on the bench. Truly, the extra players on the bench are the extra players in the court that help the team be successful.

The people on the bench, often feel left out. Not because they aren't being played. It's because they are not being acknowledged my their fellow team mates. The ones that the bench warmers cheer on.

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Suppose that your friend is one of the players that is always put on the field/court.

You are the one on the bench.

Suppose that the game became that person's life.

You are always building up that person. Always giving to that person (doesn't have to be material goods).

But then that person never acknowledges you.

Now, you become the bench warmer, the person on the sideline that the player (your friend) never acknowledges. Never gives back to that person.

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Sometimes I feel like that person on the sidelines.
I am always being there whenever my friends need it.
I am always willing to make time for a friend.
I am always wanting the best for a friend.
I am always looking out for my friend.

All I ask in return, is the gift of time.
Or just a simple text message or phone call
Saying, "Good Morning" "How was your day"
Saying, "Do you know what happened today...."

All I ask is just a simple, "Hey do you want to chill??"
Or "Hey do you want to come over??"

do you ever feel like the friend on the sidelines??